alright. here goes nothing lol.
hey, i'm 18yr old eve. after going to therapy for some time, i've come to the realisation that i do not have ANY healthy coping mechanisms, and i want to help myself.
so, this is a diary of my life ig.
today, i woke up after a smooth af comedown, had a cigarette and some food (i think, i can't rlly remember lol)
lay in bed for a couple hours before getting up and ready for jacqui <3
we spoke about family and childhood and i realised some shit lolza
i went out to toby's and played mc in vr lol (was v strange and i felt exhausted after like 2 hours)
smoked a j with robert by the river and saw a rat, met a cool stoner duck :)
went home and ordered chinese
watched will, minx and phil stream for a bit <3
then started this :)
currently listening to 'let's be the bad guys' playlist (aka my current hyperfocus bc it makes me feel v good :))
gonna keep doing this before i get tired and then sleep :3
aims for tomorrow:
do this again, at ANY time
get up and do dishes early
omg wait if i charge my phone i can get up at like 6 and dance in the garden
okay wait do that eve pls im begging u
um, probably don't smoke anymore weed
reach out to molly or nadine for a walk in the evening :)
stomach the college thing </3
things i'm grateful for today:
my friends are pretty awesome
i'm starting to be mindful and accepting of my childhood
i ate 'good' food today?
i'm bad, as bad can be.